I知 Not Working Towards an Antidepressant-Free Life

When I first started taking antidepressants at the age of 15, I was told it was a short term solution. My doctor told me I would only be taking them for 6-12 months max. Apparently no one needs antidepressants longer than that. Unfortunately thisツwas just one of many pieces of misinformation I was given by my healthcare providers.

Over the next 25 years, I was on and off antidepressants. My doctors would tell me at nearly every visit that if I would 窶徊ust try harder,窶 or if I 窶忤ould just grab the opportunities given to me with both hands,窶 there would be no need for the medication. The consensusツwas, I was just being 窶徑azy.窶 The medication was supposed to help, but I was supposed to do the hard work.

If the topic of medication ever came up, friends and family would be aghast to learn that I was still taking medication. Comments such as 窶彙e careful, those types of medications are dangerous, they really mess with your brain窶 were common. Others felt the need to inform me that medication was 窶彗 mask窶 and 窶徼he easy way out.窶 The question that just about everyone feels the need to ask is 窶徭o when are you coming off your medication?窶 People will often say 窶彙ut you窶决e working towards coming off your medication though, right?窶

Do you know what is 窶彭angerous and really messes with your brain窶敖窶 untreated depression. If you find 窶彗n easy way out窶 of depression, please, let me know, because there窶冱 nothing easy about depression, with or without medication. My depressive episodes are so severe when I窶冦 not taking medication. I really don窶冲 believe I would survive anotherツepisode should I have one while untreated.

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So no. I have no plans to stop medication at any point in the near future, if at all. That is not a goal I have and it窶冱 not a goal I窶冦 going to set. This isn窶冲 due to laziness or lack of education on the dangers of long term medication therapy. My decision is based on my lived experiences, much research and the advice of a new team of health care professionals.ツMy goal is to be as mentally healthy as possible. If that means mentally healthy and medicated, then that窶冱 what I窶冤l do and I won窶冲 apologize for it. My goal is to stay alive and if that means alive and medicated, then that窶冱 what I窶冤l do and I won窶冲 apologize for that.

Because being mentally healthy is the goal, I窶冤l still continue with counseling and occupational therapy. I will still work on coping skills and self-care. I will still work through my past and make plans for the future. I窶冤l also continue to take my antidepressants. So please, stop asking if I窶冦 working towards coming off of my medication, as if that should beツthe most important thing.

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